AN OFFER TO GO TO L.A. & HAVE SEX WITH A STAR!

Last Sat. night I got a call from the porno film director I had met last month. The film co. he directs for was having a 'rap-up' party for their latest flick. It was a 'major' production for a porno, with about twenty hot 'actors', filmed in both San Francisco & the San Fernando valley. It seems that while he was filming in southern calif. He had gone to several gay parties in and around Hollywood & had met a lot of well known  T.V.& movie 'stars'.  One of them was a really well known action & romantic star. There have been rumors about him for years, even though he's been married & has children, The director told me that he's introduced this actor to several porno performers over the years. It turns out that while the movie star likes fellows with good bodies,[well who doesn't], he didn't like the fact that they all had such big dicks! It seems that his is 'small to just barely normal & he doesn't like to be 'up-staged' by guys who are better hung than himself! The director had seen my 'little' one at the studio's previous party, when several porno stars used me as a 'fluffer' to get their dicks really hard for their closeups. He showed the 'star' my google album,& I guess he got interested, esp. when he heard about my [almost] micro-penis! I guess, I was just what he was looking for, a fellow who would make his little dick look big & manly. He told my friend he wanted to meet me. He even offered to send his own airplane to pick me up! On sat. the director gave me a three page form to sign. It was full of legal mumbo-jumbo, the 'just-of-it' was that you could never mention the 'star'. If you did, you would face legal action, etc....I took one look & said to forget-it! " Listen"", he said," If he likes you, you can 'earn' thousands of dollars. His last 'boyfriend' got a house out of it & they were only together for a few weeks." I told him I was not into sex for money,[I didn't mention that the fact he had a little dick, also sort of turned me off]. Anyway, the director couldn't believe I wouldn't want to have sex with a famous movie star! "I'll give him your number, anyway, incase you change your mind". I'll still look forward to his next movie, but now I know why he never shows much of a bulge, even in the tightest jeans.

                 AN INTERESTING EXAMPLE OF CHANGES DUE TO HYPNOSIS                                    There is a very "hunky'  twenty-something guy who works out at my local gym. I don't think I'v ever gone there and haven't seen him working out. He seems to be at-it night & day. Of course he's developed a fantastic body. I thought he was the 'star' of the gym, that is until a few weeks ago when his father came by to give him a ride home. His dad, who i'd guess was in his early fourties, was even 'bigger'. He looked like one of those guys who's picture has been morphed into huge preportions! It looked like his cloths were stretched over his body. He was just huge! Even with that fantastic body, he was still showing a massive bulge in his tightly stretched out  pants.  It was all I could do to keep from drooling over myself when I looked him over ! My 'little' thing became hard at once, and for the first time I was glad it was so very small, so when I  stared  at him, at least I didn't show any sign of a hard-on. Even in my porno photos I'd never seen a bigger, more manly body, unless as Iv mentioned it was 'morphed'.  After I saw his dad, I figured 'Jeff' was working-out so hard to try to be as big & manly as his dad. Now I knew why he was working out 'day & night' ,                                                                                                                                               Jeff was shorter than his dad, Id say he is only  five foot five or six. The other difference is he didn't show any bulge in his sweats & I had never seen him nude. Our gym has individual showers, but a group locker room. Jeff must have noticed that I was interested in him, since even if Id just started my workout, if he went into the showers I would soon follow! While most of the guys would leave their shower & walk to their locker nude,[esp. the well-hung fellows ], Jeff always wore a towel around his waist & slipped his shorts on under it. I did notice there wasn't a huge bulge in his shorts...not like what his dad must sport, but a 'soft' bulge can fool you, so I wasn't sure what he had hidden in there. His body was starting to strain  & push-out from his cloths and I figured it would only be a year or less until his body was close to his fathers. Finally I got to meet Jeff, by helping him change the poundage on one of his machines.  Jeff treated me to a drink at the juice bar & started telling me his story.  It seems his mom left his dad & him when he was eleven or twelve. His dad didn't always look like he does now, Jeff told me. His dad was fourty or fifty pounds over weight & nothing he tried had helped him loose more than a few pounds, before he would gain back even more.  A fellow his dad met in a local bar, told him he was into hypnosis & could prepare him a special tape which would help him loose weight. He asked him if there was anything  besides weight-loss he was interested in. Jeffs dad told him he wouldn't  mind developing his body,'a little bit', turning some of that fat into muscle . This fellow told him 'no problem', he would design a 'special' program 'just for you.  A week later he picked up several packages. They included a set of audio tapes which Jeffs dad  was told to listen to with ear phones while he slept. The fellow he had met told him for a complete program he would have to buy a special video disc machine which when hooked up to the television would transmit visual messages that you wouldn't even notice as you watched t.v. He told him to think about it, because this had to be ordered overseas, with custom made disc's & wouldn't be cheap. [ Little did he know, the fellow had included a subliminal message in the tape to encourage the listener to go futher...needing to get the more advanced materials].  As a matter of fact, Jeffs dad didn't really know what was on the subliminal tapes he was listening to at all. [ Only many month later did he find the tapes included much more than he had  asked for...and by than it was too late !] It seems that in addition to helping him loose weight, the man from the bar had included 'life-style' changes, basic 'sexual' suggestions & other 'ideas' he was interested in  and wanted to 'try-out' on someone. At last he had found an unsuspecting subject to test his unconventual  ideas!                                                                  Jeff's dad excitedly starting using the tapes at once.  All he heard was music, but within a few weeks He felt they were starting to work. He was eating as much as always, but he started working-out & he found his weight was turning into muscle...slowly but surely. The only thing was He found himself wanting to work out more & more. As his body grew into muscle, he wanted more & more. He found himself working out six or seven hours a day, It seemed he never had enough. Soon he was taking large amounts of 'supplements'...anything to grow bigger & bigger! Than someone at the gym offered him growth hormones [under the table]. Eight or nine months had passed & he was a different man. The subliminal tape guy was now giving him 'new' custom made tapes almost every month &  he also had bought and set-up the 'special' disc player which would automaticly  send out visual as well as audio messages when ever the T V was on.    No one had though about the fact that Jeff often watched the television with his dad & sometimes for hours alone while his dad was at the gym.  Although the subliminal messages were much weaker for Jeff, since he was not hearing the evening tapes, they still had some effect. It was after only a month before Jeff found himself wanting to work out more & more, but he was only thirteen or fourteen & still was in high school during the day. He found his grades suffering. Jeff had been an A student, but now he found it harder & harder to concentrate & think about his school work...he just thought about working out & developing his body. He found it harder & harder to understand things in school. He started cutting school to work out at the gym. Sometimes he actually felt he was getting 'dumber' , but he didn't care. He wondered how he had ever understood 'all that school stuff'. Of course his grades dropped. His report card's became all F's and a few D,s & not only didn't he care, but when his father found it, he didn't care ether! "Why don't you just drop-out of that place, so we can work out " his dad said.  When Jeffs dad told the bar guy what was going on, he asked for the first time, "oh, i forgot your son might be watching the same television as you. You better let me get you some tapes for him...buy him a tape machine & we'll start him on his own program next week" Jeffs dad had developed some interesting ideas about his son since he had been highly influenced by some of the messages on the tapes. "Listen" he said"I like my boy a lot better lately. I always though he took after his mom...He was too smart for me, with his head always in a book. Lately he's lost interest in school & he's getting into developing his body. He's finally becoming more like me, and I like it..DO YOU THINK YOU COULD PUT SOMETHING IN THERE TOO MAKE HIM DUMB? I've always wished he was more manly, even if he was stupid!" [ the 'bar-guy' was thrilled, he would start a program aimed at turning Jeff into a 'true dumb-jock', a stupid guy with nothing but huge muscles who knew nothing & cared for nothing except his body! This was just what he wanted....little did jeffs dad know that his own program had lowered his mental abilities as it had increased his interest in his own body.  Now both father & son would become dumb muscle jocks...but each of their tapped programs would be different, turning one dominate  & the younger much more submissive. This would only be the start of their transformations].                              A week later Jeff & his dad were excited when their new tapes & discs arrived. Within a month & a half, Jeff dropped out of school in his junior year! Not only had he lost all interest in school, he really could no longer understand most of his subjects. He found he was even having trouble reading & wondered how he had ever been able to read & understand all those books, they now seemed like they were written in another language. "school's for fools & faggots" he told his dad, who 'high-fived' him as they both laughed! "The only important thing is to be a real man" Jeff said,"I want a real man's body, like you dad, you're my ideal...I could just look at you & admire you killer body for hours!" Jeff's dad was thrilled, at last he had the son he had always dreamed of, but something was different. Then he realized that hearing Jeff express admiration for his body had given him a huge hard-on! What superised him even more was he didn't care, as a matter-of-fact he hoped Jeff saw it.[ of course this was all part of the mind control he knew nothing about!]  Suddenly he was filled with  strange new feelings of pride, not only in his now fantastic new body, but in his huge penis as well. Hell, he wanted Jeff to not only see his massive hard-on, he wanted his son to admire it. Now that his son had a macho muscle man's body almost as big as his own he found he had new exciting feelings when he looked at and thought about Jeff.                                                                                                                  Jeff was now completely different. His I.Q. had dropped, but his ego had risen. He found himself laughing at 'smart' people, he was even starting to forget he had ever been smarter himself. His dad would tell him that they were both 'dumb jocks' & in his mind he was starting to believe it. Those days of being a 'smart' student seemed more & more like a dream,[ and since he was now programed  to hardly be able to read at all, much less understand even the simplest ideas] he lived only to develop his body. When he was not working out he would always have the T V on, but now it was always cartoons. Him & his dad would watch cartoons togther  from dinner time untill bed time!                                                                                                        Jeff had only two things on [what was left] of his mind, one was constantly developing his body. By now  him and his dad had bought a half dozen floor length mirrors, so they could pose & admire themselves wherever they were in the house. Jeff would pose & look at himself for hours on end, his now empty mind only concerned with his image reflected in the glass!  His ego would rise as he thought about how 'manly' he now was. 'This is what a 'real-man' feels & looks like he thought. "Soon I will be as manly as my dad!' However the recent new subliminal programs had started to put new & strange ideas into his head.  The other night when his dad had gotten a big hard-on in front of him, Jeff had more than just noticed. He had found it exciting...after all, he thought,'that big dick in dads pants  just makes him even more manly!' Jeff was even starting to have dreams about his fathers big penis. In his dreams his father would be posing for him in a tiny posing-strap or a jock strap, neither of which could quite cover his massive endowment. Jeff would come close to his dad & drop to his knees, his face just inches away from his fathers huge bulge. He would watch, his eyes trained on his dad's penis only half covered, as it grew bigger & bigger. Although it was huge in real life, in his dreams it was even bigger...enormous! "Go on, you can touch it" his father would say. Around then Jeff would cum in his sleep.  When he woke he wondered if he should mention anything about his dreams to his dad. [ Of course Jeffs dad was having similar dreams, except in his he would force his big penis into his sons mouth, calling him a faggot. He would also cum in his sleep, except in the dream he would cum in Jeffs mouth & watch as his son  took it all, asking for more!] Neither of them had any idea that this dream, slightly different for both was included in their subliminal tapes. Also slight S & M ideas were creeping into dads tapes, while Jeff was starting to be programed with some sexual inferiority issues combined with his 'body image' physical superiorty .                                                                                      While Jeffs father admired his sons muscled body, he was starting to think of him in a new way. Jeff was now completely transformed into the stupid muscle  son he had always hoped for & thanks to his programing Jeffs dad no longer even remembered that Jeff had ever had a brain, or that he requested he be completly dumb-ed-down. But, he couldn't argue that Jeff was a 'hunk'. When he walked around the house in just a pair of tiny shorts,[which was now about the only thing Jeff wore at home,[the better to look at his own body in the house's many mirrors] his dad found it harder & harder to look away. Hell he didn't even try anymore. Both father & son would stare at each other from the minute they entered the house, until 'lights out'. The only difference was now they would also get hard-ons as well.                                                                       Dads newest tapes were starting to become slightly sadistic, while Jeff's were becoming just the reverse.  At home dad found himself ordering Jeff around more & becoming generally more demanding, while Jeff thought more & more about his dad being the 'boss', the real man in the house. He didn't even notice his father's being more demanding, as he was starting to feel more naturally subservent, 'after all he said to himself he is my father & he's the 'real-man' I hope to be someday, plus he's carrying around that massive manly cock'  So, dad would openly stare at Jeff's young, overly muscled body & [lately] his firm tight bubble-butt, while Jeff found it hard to take his eyes off his dad's overly developed body, especially his 'now' almost always hard massive penis!                                                                                                                Over a year & a half had now passed. Jeff & his dad usually spent most of the day in the gym they had built in their basement. It had become so hard for ether of them to stay away from their work outs that they had found it easier to have their own equiptment  installed at home, plus it made it easier for them to watch each other work out, which they both loved. [their new programs suggested that each of them, 'jack off' while they watch the other work out. The problem was, they were 'instructed' to do it in secret, not letting the other one know what they were doing]. Of course it didn't take long for each of them to suspect what the other one was doing, but since they didn't know they had also been caught they each 'played dumb'. Jeff had become so 'dull' that it was four weeks before he caught-on to his fathers  jacking off & he never realized that his father was on to him! He continued to excitedly jack off for several mounts, his right hand in clear view deep down inside his sweats. Jeffs dad gave himself away by the huge gobs of cum which started leaking through his work out shorts! Both father & son continued their daily work out & J.O. sessions as if nothing had happened. If it was possible they even enjoyed them more!  Once a week they would go to the local gym together to show off their  huge bodies to the other fellows there. It gave them both a super high to be admired by the other men & after a few hours they both couldn't wait to get home [and for a change] each ran to his own room to jack off, thinking about how 'manly' he was and how the other guys must have felt 'inferior' compaired to him!                                                                                                                          Their programmer must have felt his work was almost done. The next series of tapes & discs were much more graphic in their sexual content.  Jeffs tapes continued to have him value his own body, but now more & more they involved worshiping his father, being bossed around by him & doing anything he asked or better yet ordered. The more Dad took control the more excited Jeff became. Of course the most exciting thing was the thought of being sexually used by his father, sucking & being fucked by his huge dick , but most of all being allowed to really worship it. Jeff knew he would be in heaven if he could wrap his hand around his fathers wonderful penis & make it shoot, lapping up his fathers thick manly seed!                                        Jeffs dad had now graduated to much more sexual tapes as well. In addition to now seeing his son as a sexual object, his new strong sadistic feelings were encouraged . He desired the 'boy', but at the same time he was starting to think of Jeff as a sexual 'object', a 'thing' to be used for his pleasure. He had already developed a relationship where he was the complete 'boss'. Jeff would always do whatever he was told so now he couldn't help himself, Jeff was his son, but he was now & always would be his INFERIOR. & it was time to take complete control!  Jeff had already been programed to feel complete sexual inferiorty  in the presence of his father, so at long last they were both ready to go the next & possibly final step.  The programer had allowed the word faggot to creep into most of the last years tapes. For Jeff it had been used two ways. At first, now long ago, as his intellect was permently removed, he had been taught to equate brainy men with faggots...all smart people were really faggots, and as a teen it was easy to control him & make him actually happy that he was loosing his intellect , in his mind, as he became dumber he became more manly & his new body proved it to him ! This phase was more than successful. Jeff now had the 'hot' super muscled body of an  adonis, but he would forever be no brighter than a five or six year old,[ however one of the joys of being so 'limited' is that once his intellect completly faded away, he no longer realized how mentally inferior he was..he was happy being physically superior & thought that made him superior in every way]....But one , for the past eight months, the word faggot, had come up more & more, in reference to the sexual desires that were now strongly implanted in his brain. The message told him more & more that no matter how manly he now looked, in compairson to his dad he was a faggot! The thrill he got whenever he looked at his dad, the constant thoughts about his father's big dick...the fact that he was ready to do anything his father asked, or better yet ordered made him a faggot. He longed to have his father order him to have sex & to call him FAGGOT. Each of the last few tapes had stressed the pleasure he would receive when his father addressed him as FAGGOT. He wanted that to be his dad's new name for him!                                   Little did he know, but his father had received almost the same suggestion for months, except of course it gave his father strong sexual satisfaction  thinking of calling his son, FAGGOT. Every time they were in the house[and if truth be known, even when they were out at the local gym] his father longed to address Jeff as FAGGOT!                                                                                                                                                      Well tonight would finally be the night. They had both received new tapes & disc's the night before & they were sexually explicit , the only difference was that dad was now more 'master' as well & jeff was a willing 'slave'& complete faggot,[even with his super-manly' body] he acted almost like a sissy rather than a son.  They had been watching a cartoon togther, while the latest disc had been sending messages to both of them, when dad suddenly got up, his usual hard on bigger than ever. Half his penis was sticking out of his fly & he made no effort to hide it! "It's O.K., you can look at it, faggot" he said to Jeff. Both of them felt a thrill run through their bodies. It was finally said, out in the open. "thank you ,sir" was the first thing that came out of Jeffs mouth. His father left the room. but it didn't take long before he called down,"Faggot, get your fucking ass up here...right now!" "Yes sir" was all jeff could think to say as he ran up the stairs. "What took you so long, faggot! When I call, night or day, you come at once!You understand, you fucking queer?"  "Yes sir" Jeff answered again . His father,[or was he his master, Jeff was confused] was & will always be right...that he knew.Master was lying on the bed, his massive penis, still only half out of his fly . "This is it fag, I've seen your mouth water when you look at my dick. Well, it's time you got more than a look. I'v known you were a fucking queer for a long time and now it's time you finally get some use. Go on, take the rest of my big dick out, sis". Jeff rushed to his fathers bed."Hold on faggot, aren't you going to ask permission to touch my dick?" "Please sir, may I take your wonderful manly penis out of your pants" His father was thrilled to hear this, but not as much as Jeff was in saying it!   END OF PART ONE   [if you want this story to continue you must leave a comment]

I was at a new friends home last night & after a few drinks he started to get horny. We had fooled around in the past, & though we really liked each other as 'friends', the sex had just been 'so-so'. Although his dick is bigger than mine,[ after all who's isn't], He still had only five & a half or [ tops] six inches, while you all know what I [don't] have, so although his penis towered over mine, it was still not enough to really turn me on.  Also he really had little or no interest in mine, since it was way too small to f**k him,[which he loves] & he said it didn't turn him on to suck it as he likes a penis to really fill up his mouth & gag his throat!  We had fun kissing & jacking each other for awhile, but it wasn't enough for ether of us, so he went to a 'hot' site on the net. 'looking for 'love'...an hour or so later two nice looking guys came by.  One was about our  age,[early twenties] & the other fellow was quite a bit older, [I'd say late forties]. We started talking to get to know each other a bit & see if we wanted to have sex.  It turned out the older guy was the younger one's uncle! They had been fooling around since the older guy was in his thirties,[ so you can guess how old his nephew was when they started!]  The funny thing was, the guy our age said his Dad knew all about it from the beginning, [it seems him & his brother had done 'it' all through their teenage years & beyond, & he considered himself 'perfectly normal' with two kids of his own]. The father felt he wasn't gay, though he told his son it didn't matter to him one way or the other what the son became! Anyway, while I sort of prefered the guy in his twenties & he seemed to go for me as well....wouldn't you know it, when he felt me up & realized how 'under-hung' I was he lost interest.  The uncle, on the other hand seemed to be more turned-on by my little 'thing'. He said it brought back to him pleasant memories of encounters in his past. [I didn't ask him for details, but I had an 'idea' of what he might have meant]. It wasn't long before I had his dick out, and it was really 'massive', so I was in heaven.  He played with mine while I 'serviced' him.  I didn't intend to go into this much detail when I started writing todays blog.  What I had wanted to write about was something we talked about.  It turns out he is a video & still photographer , taking a lot of 'erotic' photos here in the bay area.  He asked me to pose for him, inviting me to his studio. Checking out my photos on Google +, he asked me why there no nudes!  I tried to explain that there were two reasons, number one I didn't think it was wise for a young guy,[who's not on the porno business] to pose nude, with his whole future ahead of him,& secondly I didn't want to show-off my really, really 'tiny' dick...He said he could understand the first reason, since he had advised his nephew  not to 'show-it-all' as well, but he said the second reason no longer made sense.  He told me with todays advanced photo tools, he could 'morph' my penis into any size I would want. "If you let me take some photos, I can give you anywhere from eight to  as much as twelve inches, using your own dick, not some 'past-up' job". It was tempting and I told him I'd think it over, but I'm not going to do it.  Just think, if a photo of me with a wonderful huge dick got on the net. & I happened to go home with someone who had seen it.....& they reached into my pants & found what was really there!!! I'd be lucky to get out of there alive!....so that's todays thought.

If you read my first blog, I'm sure you have guessed I'm really into what is called 'SMALL PENIS HUMILIATION', this is where a 'real-man' with a 'normal' [usually six inches or over] or an even more well-hung guy,[ eight to even as much as eleven or possibly twelve inches] gets off on making fun,[putting-down] an un-hung guy,[such as myself.]  The more fun he makes, the crueler he is, the better. Almost nothing is too much, as long as it makes the MAN  feel proud & good about his manhood, & makes the un-hung guy feel like the most worthless, inferior 'no-dicked' FAGGOT in the world.                                                                The problem is there are thousands & thousands of smalldicked guys out there who love to be humiliated, but really very few real-men who want to be bothered 'putting them down'. It's the same as in the gay world. There are tons of guys who love to suck & get fucked compaired to the more macho guys who only want to get sucked & fu*k.                                                                                                                                        By far the best web site I'v found is listed as SIZE MATTERS. They have the right idea and 'tell it like it is'. If you haven't visited it, TRY IT, I THINK YOU MAY LIKE IT !

I have a really bad inferiority complex due to the fact that I have such a small penis,[ some call it a micro-penis, although tech. it isn't].  This caused due to the fact that family members felt I would be 'better-off' if my penis was small, since they felt it was already naturally very under-sized & would never be successful in intercourse with women, so they thought they would 'help-it-along' in staying tiny by giving me  a testerone blocker in combination with a mild female hormone prior to & throughout the years of normal puberty.  This caused no growth between the ages of nine & eighteen!  When the medication was finally stopped, it was too late. At eight my penis was already small for my age, looking little more than a baby's, perhaps [at most] an inch & a half. When erect [which in-itself was fairly rare] it  'grew' to two & a half..not gaining any thickness at all. Although my body grew fairly normally [perhaps a little more 'girlish' due to the female pills], my penis didn't grow AT ALL!  They also had me undergo extensive psych. counseling [ often four times a week] for the whole time I was on the medication.  They used 'mind control' techniques to develop a mind-set where my natural interest in girls would be slowly but surely transfered to boys instead.  Using my knowledge of my intense lack of endowment, they developed in me an  strong sense of 'penis envy'. As the years passed & my 'tiny' penis not only did not grow, like the other boys around me, but actually seemed to become even smaller I became more & more aware of the growing size of all the penis's around me. I became more & more interested in the size of those around me, until I found myself consumed with the idea of men with large endowments.  The bigger the penis, the more manly the man. Everything revolved around the size of mens dicks! I came to the realization that since I was so  completely underdeveloped I would never be a 'boy', much less a man. What I was , was a complete faggot,[a worshiper of 'real-men' & their big, massive c**ks]. All the years of medication & counsling, etc. had done their job!                                    I moved away from home at nineteen & stopped using the pills. I even underwent minor  medical pros. to look more manly, [all the female hormones had made me look more like a girl], but nothing could change my interest in young men & their wonderful huge bulges!                                                                                      You can find an extensive group of my true stories giving much more detail of my backround in my thirty entries at the Experience Project  web site. They are included in the Small Penis Humiliation section & my 'pen name' is Little Tiny Tim . I am also on the web as little tiny tim 19  & little tiny tim 20 ; both are at g mail.com as well as google + and under my real name Tim Bennett. I also have two different tumbir photo archives with lots of pictures I think are 'hot',[mostly of men & 'boys' with really big dicks, or like me, really small one's]. There are also a lot of 'porno' photo listings on google under little tim bennett & a few as little tiny tim bennett, etc.  good luck in finding these.